Call Me A Dreamer

Hi all, So I've been doing a lot of thinking about my attitude and perceptions a lot over the last term. I had a lot of rough patches of things to go through. Family stuffs, losing a staff member to suicide, being so broke I couldn't afford my own facewash, experiencing my first panic attack, life was overwhelming and I let it get that way. I understand that I couldn't control any of the things that happened. It was out of my hands, but instead of letting it go, I held onto it, and let each thing pile up and become a thing of worry. I'm naturally a worrier in the first place, so when I'm given more things to worry about, it was bad. However, it is now a new term. I had a nice spring break, filled with a few days of working as an RA, meanwhile working on my Senior Project, Printing out wedding invitations, making lists and completing lists for wedding to-dos, going to a job interview up in Seattle (it went pretty well!), staying with my best friend from high school, ...

Today is a good and restful day. I chose to sleep in after a late night last night with a double date with Clive, Brittany, Karl and I. It was the first time 'going out' since Valentine's Day when we went with my engineering buddies. We met up at Flattail and then went back to Karl's house to watch an episode of Psych and just chat over drinks. It was really nice. This morning we met up with Chantal to go for a nature walk. I was on the fence about going because I have a lot of school I need to do. I feel like I always have a lot of school to do. It never stops until the term is over, but I decided to go regardless. I only have one midterm this upcoming week, which is less than the original two I was supposed to have, so I felt it was okay. We drove out to Willamette park and sat on a bench overlooking the river. It was beautiful in the cloudy grey sky with birds overhead and below in the water. I was reminded of all of the scienc-y things I've learned while looking...